I’ve got a lot on my mind. I’ve got a lot of ideas and a lot of answers. I am full of opinions and suggestions. I enjoy learning. I enjoy intelligent conversation almost as much as laughing out loud. I have an hilariously funny & very intelligent husband; which is probably why we are such a great fit. He’s one of the many things I believe has not come to be by coincidence, rather than a higher power of some sort. I’m a ‘everything happens for a reason’ kind of girl, and there are countless reasons that I was introduced to him so many times throughout my life.
I love being a mom… most of the time. I guess that’s because I think I am pretty good at it..most of the time. I have enjoyed being a step-mom for the last couple of years, too. There are 5 of them-2 are mine and 3 are his, so 5 are ours. All of our kids are pretty great…most of the time.
I miss my mom every single day. I miss other people, too, but I miss my mom every single day. My mom was a step-mom, also. She was probably the best step-mom I’ve ever known. I’m sure there were times I was jealous of my step-brother and step-sister, but I can honestly say that most of the time, I was sincerely happy for them; happy that they got to have my mom as their step-mom, and I got to share their dad with them.
I’m 39. I have Fibromyalgia. And, Hashimoto’s. And, Raynaud’s. And, I enjoy walks on the beach. Seriously, I do. I can’t walk far without shoes on, and if it’s too cold, I have to wear gloves, and if it’s too hot, I’d prefer a short walk. But I do, seriously, enjoy a walk on the beach. I also enjoy climbing into bed at 8:30 on a Saturday night with my hubby and our three dogs, just in time for the latest episode of 20/20.
I’ve changed a lot in the last few years. For the better, in many ways, but I’m sure it is confusing for people that I am not close to. Confusing as to how this girl that was such an involved teacher at our local high school and so involved throughout the community, has sort of disappeared.
Divorce changed me. Burying my dad changed me. Switching careers and, now, working for myself has changed me. Living alone with just my kids definitely changed me. Becoming a wife and a step-mom has changed everything. Being a caregiver for my grandma changed me. Chronic pain & fatigue have changed everything about me. Having teenagers has changed me. Yet, losing my mom has probably changed me more than anything.
I was once defined by my work; I was a damn good teacher, and I am proud of the things my students and I were able to accomplish in my ten years. I was a successful marketing manager, although I had a lot left to learn. And, am grateful for my years with an amazing company and colleagues who gave me the opportunity to lead and be lead.
But, now, I’m not sure who I am or where I am supposed to be. And, so I have decided to start writing; blogging, if you will. Who knows? Maybe this is exactly who am and where I am supposed to be..